Filler Post : What's In My Bag

okay a while back there's this tag in blogs which i find really really intriguing.

Even the flickr group for "What's in your bag?" has a huge following.

& being the super curious (aka kaypoh) & bag-loving person that i am,

this tag suits me perfectly coz when people blogged bout what's in their bag, i am elated. i can satisfy my curiosity by reading bout what they have in their bag, & all from the comfort of this chair i'm sitting.

Mmm...

:)

so here goes :

this is the contents of my bag.

& this is the contents of my bag being trampled on by Samson =________=

okay it's hard to see what's what here, so i'll make it easier by taking close up pictures :)

#1. My (charging at the moment) DSL

well duh. even though i don't play it much, i still bring my DSL everywhere i go. Just in case of any emergency (like traffic jam,waiting etc) & it's too dark to read.

#2. Card reader

#3. pendrives + earphones

#4. DS pouch

& the rest like my card reader, pendrives those, i just chuck them into my DS pouch so i know where to find them when the need arises.

:)

#5. My elmer the elephant pencilbox

i don't know why also. out of habit i guess.

teehee.

#6. big makeup bag from Bangkok

lugging my big make up bag sis bought from bangkok = nightmare.

it's so big & heavy & i can never find anything i want in it.

so i bought a smaller make up bag instead :)

don't have pictures coz all these was taken last month. Haha.

#7. Senscience hair styling cream

For obvious reasons. it smells really good too.

#8. Bodyshop's body mist

i spray it on my bags when they get smelly hehe.

& my clothes.

it's like an odor purifier to me.

#9. Neutrogena lip moisturizer

my lips gets really dry no matter how many gallons of water i drink. so this is a total lifesaver.

#10. Fair & Lovely antimark cream

been using the Fair & Lovely cream since i was Form 4. My face still looks okay so don't feel the need to change :D

#11. Tokidoki pouch

very pretty pouch that stores my.. ahem.. girly emergencies. ;)

Samson's in the way again. Why hello Mr Asshole.

#12. My Roxy wallet baby gave me :)

DUHHHH. even when i don't have any $$$ also die die bring.

#13. Novel of the moment. Lord of Fire by Gaelen Foley.

Awesome awesome book. now i'm reading Dark Needs At Night's Edge by Kresley Cole.

Another book with a vampiric theme.

#14. my somewhat-diary.

i write things down & fill the pages & when the time comes, it'll be with Matthew.

:)

#15. Miscellaneous. (except for my phone)

aka junk or stuff i just chucked into my bag & forgotten bout & 3422 years later will stumble upon them while rummaging my bag looking for something else & i will be like, Ooooh so there it was this whole time.

haha.

like seriously how random is it to find bubblegum pink nail polish in your bag?

or a guiness stout bottle opener?

teehee.

all in my trusty furry bag :)

now i'm done & am turning into a monster

so you better run fast & hide quick coz i'm coming

&

tagging you ;P

roar.

btw these pictures were taken ages ago when i was still adamant bout using my furry bag every single time i go out.

now i'm using Jolyn's gorgeous black bag ;)

I'm Hanging On To The Words You Say

this has been in my mind for ages.

All these thoughts in my head, i have no clue how to translate them onto paper, or in this case, typing them down onto the keyboard.

Just finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife.

I already know how everything ends coz i cheated & read the wiki page but it still hits me in the gut, the pain of feeling outweighs the pain of knowing.

Haha, wonder if that makes sense.

There's this particular passage in that glorious glorious book that i kept referring back to. I dog-eared it & reading it over & over again til it meant nothing.

It's on page 90.

It was

Saturday, October 27, 1984 (Clare is 13, Henry is 43)

it was just a very brief passage about how Clare heard someone calling her name & she went outside & saw her brother, her dad & Henry together.

& that she went back to her room with a very bad feeling.

I wonder if she ever wanna go back. Go back to that time when she was 13 & saw her dad, brother & Henry together. I wonder if she ever wanted to go back & change things.

Like saying "no" when all three of them coax her back to her room.

to trust her intuition & stay & maybe, just maybe.. things would really have turned up differently. very very differently.

i wonder if everyone's like that.

haha. here i am, it's 1am on a sunday & i'm losing my train of thought.

i wonder.. have anyone..

ah fuck it.

Blue-Eyed Devil

"I no longer believe in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight.

But i was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you.

Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."

- Haven Travis,

Blue-Eyed Devil.

PeanutButter Milkshake

It's been way too long

:)

random things for now.

i can't seem to concentrate onto something longer than 5mins

now.

so bear with me.

Gabby's mummy gave me & sis.

kinda weird.

make up samples.

but the box is really pretty :)

the single most awesomest thing in the whole UNIVERSE!

:D

Peanut butter milkshake ;)

man's greatest invention : Peanut butter.

i love peanut butter soooo much omg & it's sold in the place i'm working.

it's called Nut Nut.

haha how cute.

:)

aww my boss is so nice :)

thank you Kevin! :D

both my bosses are awesome!

one day one of them got bored she took me out shopping T3T

lots more on that subject but i know one of them reading this so HELLO & shooo!!

xD

looking for Ammy's epilator & stumbled upon this little baby.

the box package from the Levi's couple tees bought back in 2007 :)

it felt really heavy too

i opened it & imagine my surprise when i found these :

forgotten that i turned it into an accessory box! :)

FINALLY found the necklace Adeline babe bought from Bali!

it's gone a lil faded, which gives out this vintage-y feel to it.

so i worked my outfit of the day around this colorful beauty :)

told her long ago that i think i lost it coz i couldn't find it anywhere.

haha it was in the long forgotten box tucked away inside the bottom drawer in the back room.

so i now call it the treasure chest :)

Samson wanna go out too

after like.. 174years later, finally meet up with the boys.

it was so fun!

got kicks outta making fun of some weirdo crazy girl.

feels good to be part of the WTF gang again

:D

with Odelia

yeah yeah everyone knows where this is LOL.

can anyone tell me where else to go in Kuching?

this tiny town is getting on my nerves.

In Padini

where i bought more accessories huhur T__3__T

that place is evil.

they color-coordinated everything & it's so neat & pretty & shiny & i just couldn't resist!

maybe i should stay away from that place.

MNG

trying halfheartedly to persuade Ammy to JUST BUY THE FREAKING TURTLENECK ALREADY!

they hate the dress i'm wearing with passion T___T

sad.

does it look that bad?

it does a good job covering my blob of a tummy.

the petshop owner's little poodle. i forgotten the name. it's something like Lolo i guess.

i would name my own dog SheeShee. -________-

just kidding. i don't like double names. sounds ahlian.

except for Nana. coz that anime's awesome.

toy poodle.

looks like old homeless man hahaha.

looks so grumpy!

mark my words, i'm getting it as soon as i can afford to.

going dog crazy coz my bosses are dog people.

:D

okay it's almost 2am & i've got work.

nights!

Lesners' Day Out!

Now it's time for Jolyn's birthday post! :D

Bing! @ Premier 101.

Birthday girl ain't that happy on birthday eve

Silly Mr Elephant!

gorgeous cupcakes!

dibs on the ice cream one! :)

Still not in my tummy huhur..

:) loves!

Lady Gaga moment. Haha.

No pants. Geddit?

i love my photographer! :3

bonnet? teehee.

that's us

chatted til late, went home in time for midnight, a nice surprise was waiting outside for her.

aww!

Jealous! :(

camwhore in bed :P

her playing with my DSL

babe you're really getting old!

remember when we used to chat til the next morning?

haha.

i don't think she knew i took pics that night :P

:)

woke up in time for noon

& Lesner's mum, the world greatest auntie, bought the best Teh C Peng everrrr!!

& her pohpiah is to die for..... om nom nom nom nom...

today's theme: dresses!

hair curled by Jolyn! :D

front's a bit messy, but at the back's super gorgeous!

outfit for the day :)

i love the scarf! I miss Gabby :(

crow hands

birthday girl!

#1

#2

#3

you'll see a lot of us in this post haha.

decided to pamper ourselves for the day

pedicure

me with foot massage :)

was supposed to go for the fish spa. but i just dip the tip of my toes in & the fishies came & i got scared.

LOL.

never tried it before :\

pampered

when we're done then i realized there provide magazines!

Haha been staring at the manicurist doing her thang the whole time.

=__________=

after our feet, it's time for :

body massage x)

haha. feeling damn pampered & relaxed afterwards.

it's quite cheap too.

#4

#5 took a pic with Ju-On coz Jolyn was busy.

#6

#7

oh now you know where we were at!

#8 sweet!

#9 Lesner i hope you weren't picking your nose!

#10 couldn't resist doing this ;)

guess who? :P

don't know why is she so shy. Haha.

#11

#12 Mr Turtle LOL.

very very cute! :D

Happy Birthday, Lesner!

i hope you had loads of fun that day coz i know i did! :D

much love, from me to you.

you know i'm always there for you, right?

don't worry your wrinkles doesn't show... yet.

:P

Jos' 18th Birthday

Lol

the title sounds like some essay.

Here's some pictures from Saturday night during Toi's birthday dinner.

she turned 18 btw :)

Me & Ammy in the car

going all out on the oriental theme. teehee.

i mean our theme for the night, not the dinner theme.

well, we ARE in a chinese restaurant.

anyhoooo~

Behold, pictures :

huhur wifey says i look very shu nu.

was feeling flattered & happy then she added the "doesn't look like you at all".

T3T

Me & Cindy :)

me & the owner of the dslr, covering my cleavage haha

so cute :D

wow thanks guys =_____=

the waiter's hand at the back looks like he's gonna punch me haha.

the whores & Daphanie!

the sweetest girl in Jos' family.

she is so sweet & shy.

too bad i only get to see her during Jos' family functions.

:(

shorty :P

#1

#2

#3

#4

i like this picture a lot :)

wanted to take a picture of Cindy, Jos & me

then the rest joined in sigh.

nice pictures tho :)

#4

#5

#6

birthday cake

after cutting

it is surprisingly delicious for such a large cake!

Cheesecake somemore!

i don't like cheesecake but i ate a slice. Lol.

the couple of the night.

Law always wanna take random photos

grrr!

:3

standing straight

getting shorter

okay i'm shorter than you

hahaha

shortie pie :P

another picture of the couple & her loot presents :)

for once i'm taller than him ^^

he's super tall yet he don't wanna help me snap a pic =____=

you know how girls love taking the 45degrees angle pictures?

with him you just have to tell him to take one straight on, coz it's already 45degrees.

but then you won't be able to see your neck.

=________=

okay don't know wtf i just type.

haha.

i see pictures of that night & i wanna scream "I HAVE SHITTY HAIR"

:(

we're smiling the "awkward + shy smile"..

originated by him! haha.

"Whores whores let's take pictures!"

awww.. I love you, my bitch/camwhore buddy :P

"Let's be bimbos!" Jos said

"You mean to say you are not?" Cia said.

haha.

after dinner aka supper in McD.

not enough place for all of us to squeeze in one table :\

ladies in black :)

stupid Alicia.

epitome of the x3 emoticon!

met their friend hottie Ben there.

i'm glad that i'm not the only one who thinks my manager's a bitch.

hahaa.

i love this picture.

even tho i look damn fat next to her.

i still love you, Toi

&

i love taking photos with you

haha.

present from the 4 of us to you.

so you'll have gorgeous hair to match the rest of you :)

&

so you won't borrow mine anymore! :P

kidding!

xoxo

look out world, someone is legal.

:D

Just Like Any Other Tuesday

:)

Should push all the negative posts down.

went out with Ammy.

finally chose this bag over my furry one.

It's been wayyy too long since i last used it out!

my fucked up nails.

I'm so CUTE.

so is my bunnybaby :D

one of Ammy's 1000 pairs of Kumi Shades =_______=

been playing with my DSL a lot :D

huhur..

my hand itches for it now.. addicted to Sudoku :)

playing Sudoku while waiting for Ammy

accompanied her to the bank.

Went to Spring.

Not much to do. Not much people out.

bought this super nice ring :)

heart-shaped petals.

Just being silly :)

nothing much actually.

went out for weekly supper with Jolyn.

Just remembered we didn't take any pictures huhur :(

there's always next week :)

Pretty tired, gtg to sleep now nightssss xx

An Open Letter

(Those who want to know who am i talking about, feel free to ask amanda, she will tell you :D)

hello, you.

okay, first of all, i would like to clarify that i never, ever, ever laugh at someone about something that they could never change. EVER.

take my lisp, for instance. it's something that i can never change, and even if i wanted to, i don't think i would change it, because i consider it one of the many things that makes me who i am today.

but you, however, are a bitch, and is considered free game for me

:)

and in case you don't know who you are, i will just insinuate that you may have came into the restaurant i work in, may have made fun of my mandarin (because of aforementioned lisp), with your PROBABLY hideously "beauty impared" self and equally genetically challanged grandpa---- uh, elders wtf.

okay la it is probably your parents la, but i cannot say for sure, since this whole scenerio is borderline hypothetical wtf

so did that whole "OOO let's make fun of someone with a lisp!!" make you feel better?

did it?

If it didn't i'm sure you can drive around the neighborhood and laugh at the mentally challenged and/or handicapped and/or morbidly obese people walking around.

Coz of that whole "Hello! we like laughing at disadvantaged people!" thing that your parents (presumably) instilled in you.

Of coz, you probably don't do that, but again, you laugh at someone with a slight speech disability, who's to say you won't laugh at other people,

despite the fact that you have plenty of people laughing at you and your uhhhh,

let's not start with that, shall we?

This anger will dissipate, i will once again forget your existence.

(Like i did, before you came in with your hideous skin and hair)

But take note that unlike you :

#1. i am happier

#2. my sisters have lives of their own (sans the greasy hair)

#3. I have a boyfriend that i DID NOT make up, as witnesses will testify

(let's not pretend like your "suitors" are not imaginary okay, it is getting embarrassing )

who, as witnesses will also testify, loves me to bits.

#4. I have a (somewhat) firm hold on the english language. ie I don't spell P I P E as P A I P.

#5. I am not a perpetual bitch.

Mah friends actually like me and don't go around bitching behind mah back, yo.

(unlike you in LKW hur hur yeah i heard them storiez)

#6. I admit i think i'm pretty, but at least i'm not the only who like, think so?

i mean, seriously, no one in their right mind would actually call you pretty

(besides your immediate family,

coz.. well you know the saying "A face only a Mother could love")

but i don't know la..

=_____=

you and your weird voodoo shit...

#7. i have friends, who would stand up for me, as will my sisters. and they will most assuredly not leave you hanging when people come to confront you about your various bitchy acts

(oy, where do i even begin...)

#8. i am not a COWARD.

"oh look at me, i am so scared of backlash from the very people i insult with their full names that i crawl into the protective arms of BLOG LOCK to escape repercussions that i duly deserve. boo hoo, come and protect me, imaginary boyfriend! hold me in your muscly beefy arms as i melt into your heated embrace and make sweet, sweet love to me--AHAHAHHAAH SORRY AH I CANNOT HOLD A STRAIGHT FACE AHAHAHAHA PEOPLE HAVING SEX WITH A QUASI-APE AHAHAHAHAHHAHA"

Reason #8 is from Ammy.

I seriously didn't know about that.

....'nuff said

& i could really go on and on and on..

but i have taken enough time from my NON IMAGINARY readers, have i not?

so okay, you go on and laugh, and tell yourself that what i say is not true, but inside your stupid oddly shaped head (Which Ammy told me, coz all i see is oil on hair) , in your mind with the horrible english ("overseas study HAH!!" - Ammy ) , you KNOW what i am saying is true.

and that, is where i win.

=)

post note. yeah i know you may not understand the words i use. here's some help. it would be a great help to you in the future. click!. you're welcome

inbred little shit.

love,

Abi, Ammy

& Cia

(who didn't wanna be excluded but contributed nothing.)

My Little Dream

i had this dream last night.

it was so vivid.

it was so beautiful.

dreamed of a field of sunflowers.

i don't see myself. maybe i was floating but i couldn't be sure.

the sun was shining brightly, i can't remember much but i remembered the beautiful sunflowers and the feeling of freedom.

of happiness.

someone sent me this picture long time ago:

the children's expression mirrored mine

i knew it was a dream.

but i felt real good, free & happy. even though i wasn't with anyone, i don't feel lonely.

feeling so alive & happier than i've been in months, i wondered if i ran around in that field, or i just continued floating.

when my alarm clock rang, i woke up to cold & bleak reality.

& hauled my ass up for work.

dream's over, Abigail.

Very Long Engagement

I've been thinking about this for the longest time and whenever i wanna sleep but couldn't coz the tv was turned on and distracting me from my much needed sleep, in my head ideas swirl around and sentences form and turn into paragraphs and i will spend part of the night just thinking of things to write here.

it's usually about you.

it's always about you.

Few months back, i would be waking up to soft kisses from you before you went for classes and i will fall back to sleep and wake up again to tight cold hugs from you who've just return from class. Tight, because you were happy to see me; Cold, because it's cold outside. We'd watch episodes of The Simpsons or Southpark while eating lunch and i'd whine about not wanting to be cooped up at home so you'll take me out for walks or shopping and we'll buy groceries & snacks & you'll always let me decide what to have for dinner because you don't know what to eat.

Our part of the fridge is always filled with my yogurts, milk, juice, ice cream & fruits.

In your cupboard is where we stash the potato chips i crave so much.

My things are all over your work desk. You'd always complain that you can't find your stuff among mine.

My clothes all over your bedroom floor, you'll pick them up and either hang them up or put them into the laundry bin.

I love it when we do the laundry. It's cold and i always tempt fate by wearing Eric's flipflops & my PJ shorts out.

I love that you'll let me put the coins into the laundry machine.

I love it when you don't say anything when i accidentally put $2 into the wrong slot.

I love our walks in the cold to Captain Ben's for dinner & you wait for me while i ponder over what to order when we both know i'll order the lamb rice in the end.

I love it when you laugh & tease when i accidentally said "Uncle Ben".

I love it when, late at night, i got really scared and snuggle up close to you, you'll hug me real tight.

I love it when you let me chose what movie to watch even tho you know i'll never chose your shitty movies.

i especially love it when i want something badly - something ridiculous, like the big stuffed black thingy in some random korean shop in town - instead of saying "no" to me, you kiss me and point to something else in hopes of distracting me.

I love how we'll argue about the right methods of cooking. Like the fried rice. & the really disgusting curry that tasted like really spicy water.

I love it when you compliment me on my cooking. Even tho it's just stir-fry vege. and you even compliment my rice.. everytime i cook it. which was.. everytime we cook. :)

I love how you'll drive me to the mall & follow me to all those places we've been 10times before.

I love going into DickSmith to play with the Wii.

I love that you never let go of my hand, even when you're driving.

you're always by my side.

but that was a few months back.

and where is my soft morning kisses now?

those carefree days are long gone, only can be found in pictures & memories

now i'm right here while you're way over there.

and it hurts.

that you're there.

It hurts coz i'm used to being loved so much by you, & suddenly i'm plunged into the real world with you as my imaginary friend. It's hard to adjust, i feel so naked & helpless, but i tried my best.

Just when i'm starting to get used to the idea of being alone, there you are. smiling, with your arms wide open.

It hurts that i can't see you everyday.

Can't hear your voice as often as i liked.

When i miss you so much i just wanna sleep and forget this pain.

When we webcammed all i can do is stare at your face, wishing i could touch your face.

The nights are the longest & hardest to endure.

& i know that you're back soon. I should be patient. everyone is telling me to be patient. that you'll be back and the sun will be shining again, that i can hold your hand again.

That i should be used to it by now.

This pain beneath my chest won't go away. There's always next year & the year after that.

It's like a yoyo.

after each hello i'm dreading the goodbye.